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You see, I'm trying to find my place
but it might not be here that I feel safe
Created on 2006-08-25 07:12:49 (#10992776), last updated 2009-11-25
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Basic Info| Name: | Breanne Clare Marie |
|---|---|
| Birthdate: | 1990-08-05 |
Contact:
miraclethatnevercame@gmail.com Bio
I am constantly moving forward.
My name is Breanne. I'm 19 years old. In pursuit of a boy who turned out to be nothing that I wanted out of life, I left home and lost my mind. I came home, I found it again, I fell in love, I got engaged. I am blessed to call this woman my fiancee, the woman who I will spend the rest of my life with.
I'm a music lover--that much hasn't changed. My whole life can be defined by or at least quantified by, in some way, music. It has been my passion, my drive, for as long as I can remember.
I have Asperger's Syndrome, which is a form of high-functioning autism. I have trouble making friends, I fixate on things, and sometimes I hit my head when I'm angry or overwhelmed. Please be patient with me, I'm sure there's a friendly, sweet person in there somewhere. ;)
I won't be defined by my sexuality. Something--one of the most valuable things that I ever have--I've learned in my long and ponderous journey toward adulthood is that not everything is black and white, no matter how much my brain desires it to be. I don't need to feel ashamed by the fact that I love everyone equally, regardless of gender, because this puts me at an advantage--no limitations! It's taken me a long time to realise that even if you don't fit neatly into any sexual box, you're still normal and healthy and able to have relationships, although as I've grown I've found myself fitting more and more neatly into the lesbian box. That suits me fine.
I write. I haven't written very much in awhile, but I am a writer--I feel somehow freed by my ability to use the written word to express myself, even though when I need it the most, I can't. I want to share this gift with the world, and I want other people to be able to see that, even in spite of my other flaws, I have a talent for something.
I've kept this diary for three--longer than I've ever kept any other diary, anywhere else. Why? I don't know. Maybe I'm just a shameless exhibitionist. I might not like myself all the time, but I think that I'm still a work in progress. Think of this as an architect's journal, except that instead of building a building, I'm building a person.
Lyrical food for thought:
And it takes more time than I've ever had
Drains the life from me, makes me want to forget
As young as I was, I felt older back then
More disciplined
Stronger and certain
But I was scared to death of eternity
I was saved by grace by destroyed by naivety
And I lied to myself and said it was for the best
And now faith is replaced with a logic so cold
I've disregarded what I was now that I'm older
And I know much more than I did back then
But the more I learn the more I can't understand
And I've become content with this life that I lead
Where I drink too much and don't believe in much of anything
And I lie to myself and say it's for the best
We're moving forward but holding ourselves back
Now we're waiting on something that'll never come
We're moving forward but holding ourselves back
Now we're waiting on something that'll never come
And I lie to myself
And say it's for the best
I lie to myself
And say it's for the best
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alex turner, amy acker, amy winehouse, annalisa, annie, annoying my brother, arctic monkeys, arthur lee and love, asperger's syndrome, autism, baby, baby and xavier, baby names, babysitting, baths, biggles, bilo, bilo and biggles, binge listening, blake lively, blankets, boondock saints, breakfast at tiffanys, candida doyle, carl ashley raphael barât, carrie hamilton, carwheels on a gravelroad, clare detamble, clinique happy, collections, computers, craig nicholls, crying, dancing, dancing like an idiot, defending pete doherty, demolition, dir en grey, dixie chicks, drew mcconnell, drew/adam, drew/carl, drew/peter, earl grey and giggles, eating late, emily robison, english accents, essay writing, fall on your knees, fleece, food, franny and zooey, gel pens, gossip girl, graceland graceland memphis tennessee, guitarists, guster, heartbreaker, heather o'neill, henry detamble, henry/clare, hugh harris, i spy, icons, jamie cook, jarvis cocker, jeff buckley, john barrowman, john barrowman/simon amstell, jonas brothers, jong/hugh, jules, junkies, juno, juno macguff, kim jong wan, kittens, knitting, kyo, learning, love, lucinda williams, luke pritchard's gayness, lullabies for little criminals, lush, m. ward, magick, math class, mellotron, mitchell, mittens, murphy macmanus, murphy mcmanus, music, nell, never mind the buzzcocks, nick jonas, norman reedus, notebooks, old movies, old tv, ordering in, paulie bleeker, pete doherty, pete doherty/carl barât, pete/carl, photography, piano, polka dots on tights, popmundo, popomundo, pulp, red coats, robot voices, roleplay, ryan adams, saturday night live, school, serena van der woodsen, she & him, shopping, shut up and sing, simon amstell, simon amstell/kyo, sliding in socks, social studies, steve mackey, steve mackey's prettiness, synthesisers, tea, the beatles, the carol burnett show, the charlatans, the kooks, the libertines, the name candida, the rain, the sims 2, the time traveler's wife, the vines, the west wing, tiaras, tim burgess, tim burgess/carl barât, tim/carl, whiskeytown, xavier, zooey deschanel
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Schools:
Assumption - Cold Lake, AB, Canada (2004 - 2008)Mount Royal College - Calgary, AB, Canada (2008 - present)
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